Friday, February 10, 2006

Cold.

Melancholy.

It's been a long time since I've felt so cold in the mornings.

I woke up this morning, reluctant to open my eyes, reluctant to know that I'm gonna wake up into a whole new world today - One that has changed tremendously, because of us.

I feel so painful inside, yet so empty. I don't feel like doing anything, I just want to enter into a deep slumber and forget everything. I couldn't sleep last night, and your words just kept bombarding my mind over and over and over again. Why is it that nothing seems to work, or does nothing ever lasts?

I feel so empty, because I can only reminisce the past, and hope for a better tomorrow. Last night when I left abruptly, I found myself taking step by step back to your house. There was this strange feeling that drew me to you, and as I took more steps, the more painful I felt. But after I left, I was so puzzled, so lost, not knowing what to expect. I feel so empty because I know maybe even if you are there in the future, it isn't the same anymore. And because I know that all these times, you never came as close to my heart as I thought you did. And not that I know of the truth, it just sucks all the passion inside me, all that love, faith, commitment.

Yes, it isn't the same anymore, because nothing lasts forever,

Even Cold November Rain.

Agony.

posted@6:02 AM

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